TGIF!!!

It's finally Friday again!!! This week has crept by, I guess because I've been sick. I am feeling better, not well, but better. It's amazing how a little virus can zap you of all your energy. I made up my mind to go to the YMCA yesterday, even though I was not well yet, and I could not run but 1/2 mile. 1 1/2 weeks ago I ran 6 miles!!! I simply could not run long. I felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest and every time I coughed, I felt like everyone was staring at me thinking...why is she here spreading her germs!!! I'm going to try to run again tomorrow. We'll see how it goes. I'm still coughing a lot, and don't have all my strength back, but I don't want to lose my endurance that I had built up. The race is April 26, and I don't want to have to start from the beginning in my training again. I guess I'll wait and see.
Blessing of the day. Katie and I got our hair cut. And now, Katie is going to the lock-in at church. Thank you Lord for such great youth and children's ministry leaders. It is so comforting to know that my child will be safe and will have a great time when she is with the youth at church.What an awesome group of people we have at Antioch!!
P.S.-Justin is not going to the lock-in. He's coming down with the flu:(

Feeling better, I hope!!!

I hope and pray that this flu is on its way out of my body. Man, I hate being sick!!! Both of my kids have a doctor's appt. this morning,(just a routine physical) and we have to fit school in between that and spanish class for Katie, and soccer practice. I don't have my daily lunchtime client today. His mom is taking the day off. So, at least I don't have that to figure into the equation. (not that I mind, he's a sweetie) Anyway, got to get the kiddos up, so I'd better go for now. Love to all. Have a good day!!!!!

Sick!!!

I have come down with some kind of crud...achy, coughing my head off!!! I went to church this morning,(probably should have stayed home, but I hate to miss)coughed the whole service, came home and after Gene took me to take care of Tucker Dog(one of my clients), I crawled in the bed for the afternoon. That is very unlike me, but this crud is not fun!!! I slept for a little while, still coughing a lot, though, so I decided to stay in tonight. I hope I didn't give everyone at our band service last night and church this morning my germs. I just hate to miss out on things. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day!!

Sweet Sixteen!!!

Yep, you heard it. My sweet baby boy is turning 16 at 11:18p.m. How did that happen? I so wish I could turn back time to when he was 2. I can't believe in two years he will be an adult!!! I feel old!!! I'm letting him sleep as late as he wants today, and he doesn't have to do school. We still don't know what today's plan will be. He's more indecisive than me(or at least as indecisive) He hates to be in the spotlight. I want to make such a big deal out of his birthday, but he's like "it's just a regular day, Mom" To me, 16 years ago today was not a regular day. It was the day my entire life changed(for the good I might add)
Boohoo!!! How I wish I could turn back time!!! I rocked Justin to sleep for the first 4 years of his life. At the end I would have to wake him up, so he could walk to his bed because he was too big to carry. Now, he could rock me!!! How do they get so big, so fast!!!
On another note, Gene is gone for an interview with Target right now. Oh, how he needs a job. Please pray that he gets the job, if it's the Lord's will, that is. He is so bored at home!!! He needs to get a job where he can buy health & life insurance for the kids because they lose their coverage at the end of this year. They don't have any life insurance now. Anyway, God, your will be done.
Gotta get moving with my day. Love to all!!!

It's Saturday

Well, it's Saturday night. I've had a pretty good day...Pets, cleaned house,pets again, ran 5 miles with Tam,pets again, dinner date with my husband(no kids) and now I'm going to take care of pets again. I'm so thankful that I'm feeling better. I still miss my daddy every minute of every day, but I have found the strength to go on. Thank the Lord!!! I KNOW he helped me. Until Thursday, I just didn't want to function. I wanted to curl up somewhere and sleep for a month. But, with the Lord's help, that feeling has subsided. I'm sure my family is glad to have me again. I was kind of lost for a week, hardly able to make it through the day. I can now think on the happy things that I remember about my dad, not the last week of his life. I have so many wonderful memories of my daddy. I will hold on to them till I see him again.
Pets are waiting so I have to go. Good night to all!!! Love you!!!

8 days

Today it's been eight days since my daddy died. When I woke up this morning, I felt different. The sick feeling in my stomach wasn't nearly as bad, and I could look at my daddy's picture without crying. I thank the Lord for this, because he's the only one that can help me. I appreciate everyone praying for me. I knew when I opened my eyes this morning, that the Lord had touched me. I'm not saying I'm back to normal, there won't ever be the normal I was used to, but I felt better than I have in more than two weeks. I still miss my daddy terribly, but I could think about him today with crying. I know this process is a long one, and every day won't be easy, but I thank the Lord for today. Please keep praying, especially for my sister Maggie, who was with my dad when he passed. She does not have the Lord and is really having a hard time dealing with his last moments and the finality of his passing. I know I couldn't cope without the Lord. Good night to all!!

Day 4

Well, it's been four days since my daddy passed away and it still hurts. I usually called him on the weekends just to touch base, so it's been a rough weekend. My sister, Tami and her kids came up for the weekend so at least I was with family. Still the time is creeping by. Today, they went to visit some friends in Rockvale, so I've just hung around the house. In a way it was good, just to rest. I feel like I could sleep for month.
We went to church this morning, which was hard. I know everyone has been praying, and they hurt because I hurt. Kasey was a blessing to me this morning, I guess because she knows first hand the hurt I'm experiencing. She knows the sick feeling in my stomach, the ache in my heart, the questions in my mind. She was such an example to me after Damon's death. I know the Lord will help me through this. He helped her. He has promised to be there for me. I know I can lean on him.
I appreciate everyone's prayers, the food, cards and phone calls. Please keep praying for me and my family. And if you still have your daddy, tell him you love him, as often as you can. I wish I would have said it twice as much as I did. My daddy was an amazing man.

We're home

We're home from Miss. I still don't know anything, but we had to come home today. My dad has decided to wait a few days or so before he goes to the doctor. I don't expect him to be around for long. He was weak this morning and looked bad. It's been a hard weekend. Please keep praying. Love to all.

Keep Praying

It's Sunday night and the reality has set in. My dad will probably go to the Oncologist tomorrow. I want him to go, but I'm afraid of what he will find out.
I have always been a daddy's girl, from the day I was born. We are a lot alike in many ways. He is where I got my love for cooking and serving others. He always waited on my mom, getting coffee for her, cooking for her, her wish was his command. I guess he's where I got my love for coffee. Since I was a preschooler, I would wake up really early in the morning to have coffee with my daddy before he went to work. That was our special time, just me and him. Of course, he fixed my coffee with a lot of milk, even more sugar and a little coffee back in those days. To this day, if we visit him, or he visits us, we both wake up very early and have our time together. We don't plan it, it just happens. No matter what time I go to bed, soon after my dad wakes up, I wake up and we have "Our time". Everybody else sleeps in, it's just us. I will forever remember this special time, and I thank the Lord for this special memory. I'm very sad because I have not been able to have that time with him this trip(I couldn't stay at his house...a long story) and since he needs help getting around, his wife will get up with him from now on, so our special time is gone forever more.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to depress everyone. I'm just having a difficult time today, and I thought it might help to let some things out. It has been a roller coaster weekend, and I don't think the ride is going to stop any time soon.
Please keep praying for me and our entire family. I'm going to miss my daddy so much!!
If you still have your daddy with you, tell him you love him, show him you love him every day and realize what a special gift you have in your father. Don't ever take him for granted.
Please pray.

"On my blog again..."

Yes, it's me!!! I know, I know, you thought I fell off a cliff or something. Well, I didn't, life is just crazy, as usual. Happy new year!!! I can't believe it's January!! Today is my daddy's birthday-he's 79 (I think) I have a mental block when it comes to people's age. Anyway, this was the first weekend since October that I don't have to work. (Except when I was gone at Thanksgiving) Don't get me wrong-I love, love, love my job, but boy o boy, it's been nice to have a break this weekend. I get to sleep in and then come to church without having to rush around. Usually I have to work at least a couple of hours before I come to church, but not tomorrow!!! So if I look a little more rested tomorrow, that's why. If I don't look rested, well that's my normal look. Sorry!!
For those of you who know about my ankle injury, it's doing much better!!. I ran three miles today for the first time in almost a week. Man, it felt good!!! I was so worried that my ankle was going to keep me from training for the 1/2 marathon in April. But, it feels pretty good tonight. Thank the Lord!! I'm not much for pain!!!
Katie and I played two games of Disney Monopoly this afternoon. (She got the game for Christmas) I won't mention who won...just that we had fun. I love playing board games and I love spending time with my children. Put board games and my children together, and I'm a happy camper!! All you out there that have young children, enjoy every minute with them. They grow up way to fast!!! I can't imagine my life without my kids. What a bore!!!
I guess I should go for now. Love to all!!! Good night!!!