It's Saturday

Well, it's Saturday night. I've had a pretty good day...Pets, cleaned house,pets again, ran 5 miles with Tam,pets again, dinner date with my husband(no kids) and now I'm going to take care of pets again. I'm so thankful that I'm feeling better. I still miss my daddy every minute of every day, but I have found the strength to go on. Thank the Lord!!! I KNOW he helped me. Until Thursday, I just didn't want to function. I wanted to curl up somewhere and sleep for a month. But, with the Lord's help, that feeling has subsided. I'm sure my family is glad to have me again. I was kind of lost for a week, hardly able to make it through the day. I can now think on the happy things that I remember about my dad, not the last week of his life. I have so many wonderful memories of my daddy. I will hold on to them till I see him again.
Pets are waiting so I have to go. Good night to all!!! Love you!!!

8 days

Today it's been eight days since my daddy died. When I woke up this morning, I felt different. The sick feeling in my stomach wasn't nearly as bad, and I could look at my daddy's picture without crying. I thank the Lord for this, because he's the only one that can help me. I appreciate everyone praying for me. I knew when I opened my eyes this morning, that the Lord had touched me. I'm not saying I'm back to normal, there won't ever be the normal I was used to, but I felt better than I have in more than two weeks. I still miss my daddy terribly, but I could think about him today with crying. I know this process is a long one, and every day won't be easy, but I thank the Lord for today. Please keep praying, especially for my sister Maggie, who was with my dad when he passed. She does not have the Lord and is really having a hard time dealing with his last moments and the finality of his passing. I know I couldn't cope without the Lord. Good night to all!!

Day 4

Well, it's been four days since my daddy passed away and it still hurts. I usually called him on the weekends just to touch base, so it's been a rough weekend. My sister, Tami and her kids came up for the weekend so at least I was with family. Still the time is creeping by. Today, they went to visit some friends in Rockvale, so I've just hung around the house. In a way it was good, just to rest. I feel like I could sleep for month.
We went to church this morning, which was hard. I know everyone has been praying, and they hurt because I hurt. Kasey was a blessing to me this morning, I guess because she knows first hand the hurt I'm experiencing. She knows the sick feeling in my stomach, the ache in my heart, the questions in my mind. She was such an example to me after Damon's death. I know the Lord will help me through this. He helped her. He has promised to be there for me. I know I can lean on him.
I appreciate everyone's prayers, the food, cards and phone calls. Please keep praying for me and my family. And if you still have your daddy, tell him you love him, as often as you can. I wish I would have said it twice as much as I did. My daddy was an amazing man.

We're home

We're home from Miss. I still don't know anything, but we had to come home today. My dad has decided to wait a few days or so before he goes to the doctor. I don't expect him to be around for long. He was weak this morning and looked bad. It's been a hard weekend. Please keep praying. Love to all.

Keep Praying

It's Sunday night and the reality has set in. My dad will probably go to the Oncologist tomorrow. I want him to go, but I'm afraid of what he will find out.
I have always been a daddy's girl, from the day I was born. We are a lot alike in many ways. He is where I got my love for cooking and serving others. He always waited on my mom, getting coffee for her, cooking for her, her wish was his command. I guess he's where I got my love for coffee. Since I was a preschooler, I would wake up really early in the morning to have coffee with my daddy before he went to work. That was our special time, just me and him. Of course, he fixed my coffee with a lot of milk, even more sugar and a little coffee back in those days. To this day, if we visit him, or he visits us, we both wake up very early and have our time together. We don't plan it, it just happens. No matter what time I go to bed, soon after my dad wakes up, I wake up and we have "Our time". Everybody else sleeps in, it's just us. I will forever remember this special time, and I thank the Lord for this special memory. I'm very sad because I have not been able to have that time with him this trip(I couldn't stay at his house...a long story) and since he needs help getting around, his wife will get up with him from now on, so our special time is gone forever more.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to depress everyone. I'm just having a difficult time today, and I thought it might help to let some things out. It has been a roller coaster weekend, and I don't think the ride is going to stop any time soon.
Please keep praying for me and our entire family. I'm going to miss my daddy so much!!
If you still have your daddy with you, tell him you love him, show him you love him every day and realize what a special gift you have in your father. Don't ever take him for granted.
Please pray.

"On my blog again..."

Yes, it's me!!! I know, I know, you thought I fell off a cliff or something. Well, I didn't, life is just crazy, as usual. Happy new year!!! I can't believe it's January!! Today is my daddy's birthday-he's 79 (I think) I have a mental block when it comes to people's age. Anyway, this was the first weekend since October that I don't have to work. (Except when I was gone at Thanksgiving) Don't get me wrong-I love, love, love my job, but boy o boy, it's been nice to have a break this weekend. I get to sleep in and then come to church without having to rush around. Usually I have to work at least a couple of hours before I come to church, but not tomorrow!!! So if I look a little more rested tomorrow, that's why. If I don't look rested, well that's my normal look. Sorry!!
For those of you who know about my ankle injury, it's doing much better!!. I ran three miles today for the first time in almost a week. Man, it felt good!!! I was so worried that my ankle was going to keep me from training for the 1/2 marathon in April. But, it feels pretty good tonight. Thank the Lord!! I'm not much for pain!!!
Katie and I played two games of Disney Monopoly this afternoon. (She got the game for Christmas) I won't mention who won...just that we had fun. I love playing board games and I love spending time with my children. Put board games and my children together, and I'm a happy camper!! All you out there that have young children, enjoy every minute with them. They grow up way to fast!!! I can't imagine my life without my kids. What a bore!!!
I guess I should go for now. Love to all!!! Good night!!!